（花にとりついている虫でも愛することの意味を知っているに
ちがいない。それにひきかえ私は今日もひとり、いたずらに孤独を
かみしめて生きていく他はない）

＊あはれ：しみじみとした感動、愛情 ＊ひとりある：独りで存在する
＊わびしき：つらく悲しい

To be alone or loneliness is so much a part of my life that if I
meet with a woman, that course of time becomes oddly unreal,
a sort of virtual reality. That's perhaps the reason why I tend to
make a woman feel somewhat uncomfortabl with me. Though I
always yearn for love, it is also true that in case it really comes,
I'll be frightened and lost, unable to deal with the situation.
Here, I am  jealous of all the couples around me. I feel envious
even of animals, insects  plants etc.